Written by Ashton Deroy. This spot is intended to link to my promotional Facebook page.

This was done as creative writing, God Complex and a recall of traumatic events in the Ashton Deroy biographical posts.

I am never going to stand in front of a room of people. Getting married and asking someone ‘Will you take me in Mental insanity, Poverty and Intense Over exploitation?” That is not happening. It’s of no interest to me.

Links to my Instagram.

Listen the first gay experience where a man told me he loved me? Was my Brother/Cousin Shane Fraiser. He also alternated episodes where he said he wanted to kill me & he was madly in love with me. I have said this to Brighton OPP on record. Therefore this is mine to share. All he wanted to do was Jerk me off and control me. I am not sane. Have never been quite right after this. (I will under no circumstances revoke their name but there is an answer in this to my family. Just never F*** with Ashton! 😀 Ashton Don’t give no F****s ! Ashton was an Intelligent man whose mother told everyone he needed Diapers! Meanwhile Ashton could go to the bathroom fine. As long as his mother wasn’t waiting to scream at him as a child! Mom I will be waiting to scream at you someday! 🙂 Warm family memories. Sarcasm

For years I set out desperately to have a Honesty filled Loving intense experience. When I was dating Kaylib in 2019? I had this experience. Going forward however? It is morally wrong for someone with my mental health & family background to date.

No I don’t hold Kaylib Drury on a pedestal as my brother Kyle Deroy has said. I just view him as my 1 Honest run with love. That’s not a pedestal. I am not still in love with him. Due to the Interpersonal Interdependence of all love it would be impossible to still love him. However and this is true.

• It is my fault that relationship is over. I failed at my job. Regardless of the fact I smashed my head in by accident. I did fail at Giant Tiger in 2019. I should of quit rather than work too hard. I went home in Pain Way before the head injury. I knew Jennifer Boutilier was working me too hard.

• It is my fault I didn’t disclose my family alternated helping and complete random abandonment. As my ex Christopher Rudan said I should disclose.
• I should of confronted my family on their Values around Work years ago. When I say Confront? I mean someone should of been hit! I mean that sincerely.

I am a damn special needs adult regardless of this Loyalist College education.

You do not cure Autism with Behavioral control, the army or Post-Secondary. If my Family were good people? I would of taken a few years off. Gotten on SRIs, seen counselors and focused on me. Rather than focusing on Productivity to the hindrance of my crashing mental health.

Kaylib Drury, I am sorry I landed in your home Brain damaged and nearly dead. To my unattended ignored family? I am sorry I limited the beatings to Kyle Deroy & Steffanie Sagriff growing up. Truly if you don’t stay away I will be sure to correct this. Cause deep down inside I truly mean this. I F**** HATE YOU!

It’s not that I hold Kaylib Drury on an obsessive pedestal that I don’t date. It’s because I am mentally ill. I am not fit for dating… However because I had 1 honest run at love? I am satisfied. I am ok with this conclusion.

The Disgusting rebound

Gary Hall online was the rebound after Kaylib. Mostly he made it seem like he was going to give me a warm place to stay. In exchange for sexual exploitation well I was homeless. I caught on and kicked him out of my life. You know with him? As a fellow Special Needs adult. Between leading me on and the Wonder Woman fetish he had all four years at ENSS. Plus he loved calling me a Retard.

(He dressed up as Wonder Woman every Terry Fox Run.) Someone made a tribute to this. Gary Hall actually tries to deny this nowadays. It might of been his ex fiancé Leah who made the Twitter. My understanding is he never met her in person. Like me he messaged her? Well she was having a psychotic break and proceeded to sexually exploit her and send her penis pics in hopes of exploiting her in return. She would later reveal… Everything from her photo to her nudes she sent in return to him. All fake and she was actually an Online creative writing teacher who didn’t actually have an online presence outside of the paid classes.

It was just too much. I am done. I am really done…. I tried to even be in love with a long term best friend. That best friend would rather F*** an Artificial Intelligence fantasy anime boy. I will talk to people on dating apps. However I probably won’t ever sleep with any of them.

contact me at Ashtonderoy@gmail.com