Written by Ashton Deroy

Tonight I learned one of my Autistic Peers from Public school thought I hated them. Maybe I was a bit of a bully. For that I made amends. I was sure to tell them that wasn’t true I could never hate them. DON’T BE A BULLY LIKE I WAS!

I explained my ADHD and how I grew up to them. This needs to be said. If you have an autistic child? DO NOT isolate them from their peers. It leads to self-hatred, lacking self-awareness & later on anger at the people that isolated you. Not to mention it hurts the feelings of their peers to. Someone less intelligent to me? Would of lashed out at their family much worse than I did. Hence me gladly voluntarily doing Anger management in 2023. Partly because of the advice of an Autistic peer.

The truth is? I still haven’t forgiven much of my family for ableism & isolation from childhood. I have gotten the comments. ‘Let it go!” To that I reply? Give it time. Maybe I will or maybe I won’t.

I had the good common sense. To know to make amends with this person from Public school. My rage still eats at me though. I have family expecting me to apologize but honestly? Cause of the isolation growing up. a Lifetime without them is very much on the table.

Would you like living like a Prisoner of a Parental Dictatorship through much of your childhood? Or would it drive you crazy? Would it eat you? That you can’t take revenge on the family that did that to you as an adult! Yet… They have the nerve to ask for an apology from you as an adult. How about a boot up your a** fam?! Cause I can’t do that. This blog repeats an age old request. If you are related to me? However cut off by conflict. I ask that you stay cut off. I’m not looking for my family connections.

Who deserves an apology?

There is a reason I was more sorry to my peer in Public school than my family. This peer isn’t a Bigot! They aren’t a Warden! They aren’t a Dictator! They were just my friend.